When my Nan died, amongst her things I found a little poem I'd written her when I was five, about a ghost who liked toast (clearly a child genius in the making) - as soon as I could write, I did.
I love writing. That's my thing, my talent - some might say. I find it relaxing; it focusses me whilst transporting me elsewhere. As well as my blog, I write fiction and poetry, but I seem to have fallen out of love with those forms of writing lately.
I certainly go through phases with writing, I always have and I probably always will. Recently, I don't have the motivation to write anything other than my blog and articles for other sources; I certainly haven't typed a word of fiction in at least a year, and the last poem I finished was in October 2014. It makes me sad, and really pissed off that I don't give myself time to write creatively. I don't even know what it is, I can't seem to sit down and bring myself to start. I have ideas all the time, I'm always making notes to write about this or that, I just haven't done it in so long. I need a massive kick up the arse.
I've had short stories and poetry published; I'm not shit, I'm also nothing special, but I know I can write well, and write things people would want to read. I just need to get my mojo back.
They say there's a novel in all of us, and I truly believe I have at least five in me. I've had all the intentions of writing a crime thriller since 2010, I remember exactly where I was when the idea came to me. Sat in uni, during my Crime Fiction module (surprise surprise) with my tutor was talking about American Psycho, I zoned out and started writing frantically until my hand hurt. At the end of the seminar my tutor noticed I hadn't been very present (I was always very vocal) so I told her what I'd been doing and she begged me to get it written. Have I done that? No. Have I started it? At least ten times. I'll get there.
I'm hoping by writing this, I realise how important my creativity is to me. I miss it. I want to write. I don't know what's stopping me. I might start scheduling writing days in my diary as I do like a routine. I'll get there, I'll write a novel and a poetry anthology. Watch me.